Am i always hurt?

Wow yeahh i just notice that this will be an account where i will be putting all my depression and sad times here :P and yeahh the other one is a happy and update place XD lol .. anyways today was pretty sad because i went to facebook while i was there... well i saw the invitation that thaoiee sent me and i want to go but i can't because i have somethings to do which is nothing and i don't want to go is because i don't want to see something there i don't care that they are together now and stuff but i don't think i want to see that just yet... i know for sure no one could understand how i feel stepping into someone shoes doesn't make them really know how they feel.. its just a phrase where people say that just to see what they see not just directly feel.. but yeah... sucks looking at the status.. i don't care and i hate it when people bring up something i don't want to hear .. like Tony he was so close of getting hit by me.. like literally not even kidding -_-" he keep bringing up the time when me and Tuan was together -.-" he keep saying it over and over again like seriously i even said i was serious when i said stop talking about it.. don't talk about it!.. >.< just because we know each other for a long time doesn't make him know anything about me! me and him never even talk ever when we know each other that time only Diane and me.. man he so freaking annoying one day just one i will actually slap or punch him i am not even kidding! he got to stay out my business! when it comes to something about trust i don't give it out so easily.. i am actually serious! and when i say don't tell no one i mean it because i "trust" is not like anyone else.. if you break my trust like literally when i actually told you something important and you broke it .. there goes everything .. we are no longer anything and i will not speak to you whats so ever i will not even look at you even when you try to be friends again i still won't ever talk to you or even do anything.. i am that serious once i delete you out of my sight it will be permanent.. unless i actually accept you again then okay but it won't be the same.. i don't tell people much of my secrets or anything that has been on my mind.. the only time i can is basically.. talking to myself in the mirror o.o [weird right?] .. Gosh the one that gets me even more pissed is when people say like "i understand you are still not over that person, and you will find someone new" its like WTF! i don't like no one and i am over that person you are not me so shut the freak up! gosh .. sometimes realizing something is really hard.. -sigh- .. even typing something out don't really have any effect on healing me ... it just lets out all of my anger that is it.. and besides my secrets..umm.. even on blogger i never once put anything that deals with a secret of my life here.. ever! i am always looking for only certain people to tell it to... even when you did finish reading all of this.. you will still never know.. the real... Jenny... now that is the truth.. all you know that is real about me and still continues will be my personality that will never be a lie .. and the way that i am and how i act will always be the same the only thing that will change is my bad side that is all .. i am done typing.. and if you really did read all of this and even though you feel lazy and yet you still read it.. then put your name below [comment]