Back to school are you ready?

I hope everyone is hype up about going back to school. Well to be honest I am a little, but not really at the same time. :D

Well go crazy on your 1st day of school everyone. (:

Take off your shirt and take a marker.
Then write on your shirt and say.....


"I DON'T WANNA GO TO SCHOOL YET!"


LOL! I am kidding (; I am ready for school and everything that is about to get thrown to me.


Well hoping you all have a wonder year in school. (:
Work hard!!!

Don't flirt.... much :D

Later!!

A foster child?..

I am sorry but this problem I can't help you at all.

Sorry about your parents passing away. But what I can tell you during this incendent. Don't be depressed the rest of your life. Since your parents wouldn't like that, they raise you to be strong and happy so don't be depressed about it. Now still live on with your life like you use to, with a smile. Even though you still have that sadness inside, but don't let it put you down. Keep going and keep living. Since you are lucky to even have another family. But others didn't , there are alot of foster kids out there that want a family or just someone to hug and tell them how much they love him/her. Don't be to sad about it, stay strong. (:

There is always a way to make happiness come back to you.

But when you realize it you are already happy, since you know that your parents and your new parents are there by you the whole time. Remember don't try to forget those memories that you want to forget so bad. If you do that then, it will hurt you. It tells you that they were alive and their to love you and raise you until you grow up nice and tall. So be happy.

Asian parents are really ...

Asian parents sure do have everything in their control.

Lets just say HECK YEAH!

Well I have a best friend who is struggling in this problem. Guess what it is.

[]freedom

[]sex

[]school

[x]freedom

[]sex

[]school

Well freedom is a thing that most all kids want when they grow up. Well let not say kids, "teens" is the word for it.

Most teens want to live out their life now and show what they learned.

Am I right?

Or you just want to live your life how you want it.

Well either way "teens" just want there way of living.

Okay having parent trouble?

Lets say they figure something out about you having a boyfriend/girlfriend and they made a huge fuss about it and say things that make you really sad inside, but also mad.

Well?...

THAT HAPPENS.

Okay, some parents go way off about how they are treating their kids. Treating them like they are still little babys that don't know crap. Well sometimes you got to take this and show them you are not like that no more, you know what to do. You also know what your doing is wrong. Many parents think you don't do things right yet and still not old enough to have "much" freedom. Well they are wrong, okay to be honest. I don't want to say either side is bad or good. Since all you really need is a very calm and non yelling talk. Sit down and just talk if yell then what the heck yell back. I was KIDDING don't do that just still talk it over with them. If they say it doesn't matter then don't just listen to that and don't hate them. Well how could you hate your own mother/father.

Parent said:

"Do you hate me on what I said to about that ___?"

I said:

"how could I hate you, you are my father/mother"

Well they do things that hurt you and say mean things to you alot but, hear them out they are still trying to make a living for you and they raise you hard.

BUT well SOME PARENTS GOT TO STOP THAT!

As in come on they raise us up enough to know what is what now. They teach us enough to know how to walk out on our own.

Some parents got to wake up and look at their kids now. They are no longer babys nor kids. They are teens, that are about to be an adult. Well if you ever cried about a problem like that about your parents taking something percious to you away. Don't you dare cry, even though it may hurt. But don't cry, since it's not worth it. What they did to you was wrong, and taking everything away from you and not letting you go anywhere. When you are going to a higher school.

But in the end I can't really say this to fix this problem to those who have faced this. Since I didn't really face it.

But what I did face is that, about my parents taking away my friends. The thing I learned is that never to hold it in and let them do that to you. Because you didn't do anything wrong neither did they. But when things like that happened stand up and speak out. Let them listen even if they don't want to or don't care. Since they are your parents, let them in with your life as well.

They are sad enough that you are growing up and leaving them with only memories.

So I can't help you. Sorry. But listen don't hate them or be mad at them. Even though they did say something wrong.

Days into life

Many things that happened during life is like a lightning bolt struck. But even though, that happened someone is always there to help. It hurts knowing that you don't fit in with anyone, remember that there is a bunch of friends out there. Family and friends cause pain don't they, like mostly everyone have that problem. Well I don't want to talk about that problem yet, since it will come out soon. Today is really irratiting, since I am having problems with my mom. She is really sometimes the worst but she does things that make me realize sooner into something. But well I got to love her.

Today was fun, but also hurtful. Well that's all.

Well is everyone ready for school?

Enjoy you day like the last day of your life. (:

Been awhile

Well its been awhile, since I came back here on blogger. Because I have so many things to do at home lately, I got my new phone of course. It's awesome. I been not that lonely much. Since chen, came in and said something that made me laugh like crazy. But everything else, its still in total darkness. Hey, there isn't much time left. So I decided to just be happy and think if I could forget it. But it didn't, even though part of it was gone. Then all of a sudden my freaken brother came in and reminded me of everything!! =,=

But its okay, since this is life. :D

No matter where I go I will always have to face it.

There is nothing the could erase that.

Even till now, I am still going. Funny how, I always wonder about other familys. When my parents "well prepaired me" its pretty weird. But thinking about it seems stupid, but interesting. Since trading life with someone, will make you learn something new all the time.

I have to keep on working on school, instead of thinking about working to much. Since that is the only thing I could do to pay back my parents.

Well I hope it could go to you to, that don't think that your parents don't want you. Since they "are" trying hard to. Don't worry to much about the fights ya'll had. Cause at least they will try to attend at your graduation. Well at least maybe "some" I think. But well keep at it. (:

Later people.

School Arrival!!

Is everyone ready for school? well I hope so, cause you know why? it's because I can't wait until school. But a little nervous, if you know what I mean. Well anyways, if you are having fun. Wondering if it will never end, well don't think so much about it. Anyways later people, hope you all had a fantastic summer so far.

Today was fun for me since I had my time of hanging with my brother. We actually went reading, but was distrubed by "people" =,=

Well later, (:

Iife sometimes can hurt you more then you think

Today I know more things about family and life. It wasn't easy to ... know all about that... but either way I am happy. Okay, did you ever faced a major family problem before and somehow you know more things then you suppose to know? Well, it wasn't hard to endure that is it? But I have to say it's amazing how I didn't cry.. I always cry now because of that stupid feeling inside of me, but to be honest I did have watery eyes. But didn't cry, I don't know why I am just letting loose of things. Taking things in, is what I am best at. Not crying is also a thing that I am good at. But hey, you gotta be strong on what you carry right?... But this pain is still in me.. I want it to go away.. but... it isn't going away at all.. *sigh* I am pathetic right?... yeah.. well sometimes in everyone mind, there is a question that everyone wants an anwser "Why was I born?" that question is the main question that people ask, so many people make mistakes about what they did. They always wish to go back in time to change everything that was wrong, but do you ever wonder that all those mistakes are good things. Try to learn from it, if you can't then try harder. Many things "CAN" be redo again, but I am not saying that you could rewind time; but everyone could start over. There is always alot of time, even for old people. Mistakes still can be learned, so take the chances. Don't give up, keep going on. Life can not rewind, but you could choose to start over. Even if you are in jail, think about it while you are in there. Bad? Good? look how ridicoulous you look, with all those guilt and guiltyness. When you ever can get out of jail, don't do it again. But start over, learn to take those chances that were still given to you. If you can't and won't undo/start over, on what you did. Then there is still more time for you, stop making those stupid mistakes. Like stealing money *FROM A GAS STATION* or even FROM AN OLD LADY, seriously you know that you are stupid!! Don't even think that you are smart,cool,hot, or whatever! Because you are still pathetic in everyway. Doing things that can relate to going to jail or even die, well some people could change. But they don't want to, you need to grow up! Stealing things is like acting like little wimpy kids. Shooting somebody also make it look even more childish, if you think about it. It's like a kid wondering around, then all of a sudden he/she starts to steal from an old lady. Then throw rocks at her to get away, or even push her to the ground. From there on, people find out about it. Then you got in trouble, get punished and be lock in your room. Well you think that was stupid? well yes it is, but that is how "you" are like stealing things. Even till now, people are still doing that. Let me guess for a living? Well so what, if its for a living and you could say "that's reality" well yes, that is reality. But you got to look where you are now, people are still working their butts off even when they don't have an education. They still try, until they get there. People call them stuff, but they don't care. They have a family to take care of or even him/herself. Everyone has a reason to keep going step by step, instead of taking leaps. The reason why I changed my subject to this is because, I have seen a lot of kids these days. No, I am not talking about little kids. But big kids, grown men. I don't know about their past and everything else, but they got to stop looking back. They have to keep going forward, as it is.

== Thanks for reading, hope this could help out some people that you may know.===

Starting..

Today is starting to be okay, but well don't really know. Since I hadn't start about the whole day yet, but what I do know is that it is really starting to hit me. I don't know what, but it's just there. you know ? well anyways, I will be back to update this later (: thanks for reading.


Okay, I am back to update this thing xP. Well anyways well today was weird and annoying >.< , since my big brother is really getting to my last nerve. =,=
But despite that, today was weird. I finally could watch my final fantasy in PEACE, since every time I try to watch it, I get interrupted =,= . Well anyways about my sadness, it is still there inside of me. But I am willing to keep going and not give up about that stupid thing XD . Hehe, I am not going to give up. That's all I am going to say, thank you for all the people that has read my blog. Even though I don't know you, but thanks (: and all my friends that I send this to read it. Thanks lots of love,

Rainie.piko aka jenny (:

Life is really turning into death..

Today was not really fun at all, it hurts a lot. I really want to smile again.. would someone just please lend me enough strength to smile and laugh like I use to again, please anyone. But every time I cry out that sentence line. I always ended up crying more then I use to.. I don't know why I am suffering this much now. Is it because I was holding it in? or was I not open enough... I don't know.. but I am tired of my tears running down my cheeks everyday. I want to do something to make my family happy again, but I can't no more... I'm always in my room crying and telling myself that I am alone ... Why do I feel so lonely in my heart? Why is it feeling so hurt and sad lately? TELL ME WHY?! .. but no one could answer it. No one could find the right answer to it no more, I don't want to lie and say that it's the right answer anymore. I want to say that the things you told me isn't right, I am sorry. But everyone that was giving me an answer .. they were all wrong. I been feeling hurt since I was small, but I don't know how I could still stand up again, and smile. Now I don't know if I could stand up anymore, since my heart is hurting but not breaking down just yet.. I am scared, lonely... I don't want to think about death yet. I want to keep living until I meet my goal. I don't want to quit, but there is always something dragging me down. I am tired of it all.. but sooner or later, the darkness that was there will hopefully disappear. Until that day, I will still stand up no matter what. But how long can I keep doing that?..

==Lost so many... and still.. going...==

Tears shed..

I am wondering who could be reading this... but all well. I am going to be talking about sadness, I heard a lot of things from people that they been having a problem and that problem made them sad. Well even though tears may shed, but remember that there is a lot more people just like you shedding tears as well. Don't try to kill yourself because you are so hurt and sad inside, there is so much more to see and to enjoy. There are things we all may regret, but think about it. We learn from it right? some may not, but try. When you are feeling down remember to think over what it is, even though it will hurt. You might have been dumped,back stabbed,lose someone,etc. There is a lot in earth that could make someone cry. Don't give up, keep going. You will see something that you never seen before, more people been suffering then you are. A lot of things already could have happened, so keep going forward. Even though you might look back once in awhile, but keep going. Don't kill yourself.

So many tears have shed in this world. Many deaths, that hurt so much. But in your eyes look at what you know that is right, not just only for yourself.

I for all reason have to keep looking forward, even though I lost people that were very special and important to. Known as a family member, I have to keep smiling and going on with my life. Since my future is still expanding, and some may not.. But either way I have to keep giving it my all, so I could not back down to something that I am reaching for. No matter how much pain it is, I can handle it. I am human, not a god so treat me like a human. Don't always count people for your need of help, try to independent on what you can already do, and make that something big. No one is useless in this world, there is much more people that suicide themselves because of somethings that was stupid. Remember time never stop for anyone, beg it or kill yourself for it. Life still goes on for everyone, like the sun and the moon it self. You see them set, but the sun is heading to another place to shine onto. One place set, the other shine. Look into what you have, and don't look for what you don't have. Cherish everything that you got, since you never know when you will lose it. Remember that "life is life" don't hate it, just learn from it and go on. Be strong and you could get through a lot, without depression. Don't ever forget the memories you had, even though it might cause you a lot of sorrow thoughts to depression. Those memories show a beauty meaning and a very important one at that. Don't forget them, that's all I am going to say. (:

Lost so many....

Today wasn't that fun no more ... since my pet hamster died today. I lost so many pets already.. my dog,my puppy,my hamster, and my fish. Each time I have a pet, they either died,ran away, or been given away. I really don't know why but, all this time during summer .. my heart been hurting. It's like a feeling of sadness and darkness. I can't really describe how it really is but, it hurts a lot, and when I think about it, it will bring tears through my eyes. When I have that feeling, it won't go away until I cry till the very end. I really want to stop the sadness that I had inside,but.. I can't. So I kept trying to force a smile when that happens, or try to forget about it. Really everytime this happens its like it won't ever stop for anything. The more I cry , the more I feel something that is about to happen. I have been suffering a lot lately, but nobody notice it. Since I always do something to not make it so obvious. It sucks crying alone with no one to hold me and say.. "don't worry it's going to be okay" I want to hear those words from my family and friends. I been hurting so much, that I have to hold it in all the time. I tried not to think about it so much, but it's still there. Some of my friends think they know that I am not hurt, and say that "I am not really good at hiding it". Well to be honest I am good at hiding it, I just don't want to admit the truth and just tell you "you know me so well" and that's about it. No one can really tell when I am sad or not, since I am still alone. Laying on my bed, crying out what hurts inside. There is nobody who could understand that feeling that I had, but they can tell me the similar feelings that are close to it. But there is no feeling that will hit my exact feeling.. but I am glad that there is no one who know how I really am. But at the same time it's hard..

Today was a memory to all my pets.

R.I.P

love you all... I will never forget you.

Youtube people!?

OH EMM GEE!!

So, I made a video about youtube people. Since some people don't know who those people are. *Shocked* It's very surprisingly, the people I talked about on my video were very talented people. I always will look up to them, since they are trying hard to reach where they want to go. Well check out my video, subscribe to them. They are super FANTASTIC! <3


scroll down and you will see them. (:

WATCH,WATCH WATCH !! :3
SUBSCRIBE,SUBSCRIBE!!

Well I will keep y'all posted about me making videos.

Upcoming videos:

- More recommended youtube people.
-Music video
-Anime music video
-Friends hang out *random don't know when it will be posted on =P but bare with me until the end (:*

Thank you for reading until the end. I appreciated a lot. <3

So crazy!!

Today was fun, well here is a shout out to people that I want to hang out with & ... HANG hehe.
sorry if your name is not on it, it's because I am not thinking of you XD or you are not that important XP

-sabby: my wezzy :D
-trini: my bestie (:
-nhu: my crazy friend xP
-kelly: my old friend LOL
-shiki: my mall friend & anime nerd <3
-angel: aka sakura - my sushi friend & book nerd (:
-CHEN: my awesome boyyfriiennd (:

Today I know his nickname and english name XD

his japanese name was weird though o.o

I will tell yall what it is :D

timothy aka timmy XDD it sound so american XD LOL but still cute (:
endo lol his japanese name sound very familiar to another friend of mines o.o but I like it (:

well that's all later people! (:

ANIME,MANGA,DRAMA,LOVE, oh emmm geee I LOVE IT <3
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