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Sunday, April 18, 2010

did you know? ...

lately i have been writing more and more songs... lol and i have been spending a lot of time in my music room lol ... i have been writing happy songs but not with real meanings of happiness out of my emotions... the main songs i have been writing is sad songs.. i don't know why .. but i just do...
did you know?.. that i am still hurt somewhere inside of me.. i tried talking to my mom about it but it didn't go anywhere.. all there was is just silence... i am pretty.. sad... for some strange reason and..
-Crystal
-Tommy
-Trina
-Jennifer
-Yvette
-J.C
etc.. i know i didn't name a lot more of you but to lazy :P lol what can i say :P that is me.. :D .. <-- -sigh- .. smiling.. gosh when will it truly come back .. this is one of my moment where i don't know what is wrong with me and what is up in my head all there is just a simple...tear... i have been reminded of my past... and stuff or is it because.. of my high school life? will it turn out right?... since i think i won't be able to go to Taylor like i longed for.. i think i will be going to sharps town high school... i don't want to leave... seriously.. i cried over and over again that i don't want to leave all the things i worked hard on to be a waste for sharps town high school .. you know i cried about this situation over and over again.. nothing new... really... i don't want to bother my parents and i don't know how long i can keep my old address.. i don't think it will make it.. i am scared... really.. scared... the old address that i am using right now is used for me to stay in killough... and i won't be reciving anymore mails in that mailbox.. i don't know how i will be getting my report card.. i don't know what to do.. what should i do.... what should i do.... really... what should i do.... -sigh- i am so ... lost right now... my parents don't mind that i want to stay at Alief district place but they are worried about the address and the information they will be needing and stuff... i don't know what to do.. i am begging .. i am crying out to God to let me stay where i am ... let me stay please... please... i don't know what to but i think i will try to make it through high school somehow... i know i could make it somehow.. i know... i can... well... anyways... i think that ... by the end of the year.. will be the last decision of my life... weather i am committed to stay in Taylor.. or go to Sharps town high school... i don't want to go! that is what my mind is screaming right now... but i really don't know... help me...

my friends... we will all separate ....