did you know?.. that i am still hurt somewhere inside of me.. i tried talking to my mom about it but it didn't go anywhere.. all there was is just silence... i am pretty.. sad... for some strange reason and..
-Crystal
-Tommy
-Trina
-Jennifer
-Yvette
-J.C
etc.. i know i didn't name a lot more of you but to lazy :P lol what can i say :P that is me.. :D .. <-- -sigh- .. smiling.. gosh when will it truly come back .. this is one of my moment where i don't know what is wrong with me and what is up in my head all there is just a simple...tear... i have been reminded of my past... and stuff or is it because.. of my high school life? will it turn out right?... since i think i won't be able to go to Taylor like i longed for.. i think i will be going to sharps town high school... i don't want to leave... seriously.. i cried over and over again that i don't want to leave all the things i worked hard on to be a waste for sharps town high school .. you know i cried about this situation over and over again.. nothing new... really... i don't want to bother my parents and i don't know how long i can keep my old address.. i don't think it will make it.. i am scared... really.. scared... the old address that i am using right now is used for me to stay in killough... and i won't be reciving anymore mails in that mailbox.. i don't know how i will be getting my report card.. i don't know what to do.. what should i do.... what should i do.... really... what should i do.... -sigh- i am so ... lost right now... my parents don't mind that i want to stay at Alief district place but they are worried about the address and the information they will be needing and stuff... i don't know what to do.. i am begging .. i am crying out to God to let me stay where i am ... let me stay please... please... i don't know what to but i think i will try to make it through high school somehow... i know i could make it somehow.. i know... i can... well... anyways... i think that ... by the end of the year.. will be the last decision of my life... weather i am committed to stay in Taylor.. or go to Sharps town high school... i don't want to go! that is what my mind is screaming right now... but i really don't know... help me...
my friends... we will all separate ....
Nhi.. Don't worry dear... You could make it! Smile! ^-^
ReplyDeleteEven though the road may be tough, and the goals are hard to reach. But remember that your parents are right beside you! Including your friends. Even though you may not be able to be close to them, but you are still friends with them. No matter what. They are near you, helping you in every way they can. You can do it. Remember.. What have you been reaching for? Your parents are trying really hard to give you that goal of yours. So don't give up. Don't think so low. Nhi.. You can do this. Don't think negative now. Right? Remember what we have been through. Don't forget. ^-^
-Crystal Moon
Crystal.... i do remember.. i do really... and i understand that as well... and that is true that my parents are right beside me helping... i know my brother is to even though he doesn't show it.. but i know... i am sorry for thinking negative about it.. sorry.. thanks... Crystal...
ReplyDeleteJennifer Laing
ReplyDeleteI agree with Crystal. Don't think that Jenny. This isn't like you..
i am sorry Jennifer...
ReplyDeleteLosing self confidence can do a lot. At least have a bit of faith and will left in you.
ReplyDelete-Crystal Moon
i know that... sorry..
ReplyDeleteTommy Pham:
ReplyDelete"But do you really understand? I never knew you could lose so much confidence and faith Jenny"
Trina Le~
"Yeah.. We are always there for you Jenny. Don't forget that. Just speak out to us, we will understand."
Viky Nguyen-
"JENNY! Girl! What happened to you!? Be stronger.. We are here."
I AM STRONG! AND NOTHING HAPPENED TO ME!!!!! I AM STILL ME... THIS IS WHY I DON'T WANT TO SPEAK MY HEART OUT HERE !! LOOK AT WHAT YOUR SAYING!!!! YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!!!! I AM GOING TO LOSE EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE BEEN WORKING FOR !!! YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND OKAY?!!! WHY ARE YOU SAYING THAT I AM WEAK JUST BECAUSE I SAY OUT WHAT I FEEL?! WHY!!! I AM KNOW I SHOULD BE STRONG! BUT I CAN'T!!! I JUST CAN'T! i just can't okay?..
ReplyDeleteNhi, you are so silly. ^-^
ReplyDelete-Crystal Moon
HOW!!! HOW IS THAT FUNNY CRYSTAL!! YOU ARE TO FAR AWAY TO EVEN UNDERSTAND ME ANYMORE!!! SO FREAK IT OKAY!
ReplyDeleteIt's because.. Why are you assuming that we are saying that you are weak? Your friends here. They care for you a lot. Everyone is telling you to be stronger. Don't loose faith, and the will you have been aiming for. Including me.. Along with your family. They are there for you. I understand that you are saying out your feelings here. I get it. :)
ReplyDeleteI get it a lot.. So Nhi.. You are strong. I know you are. Strong enough to smile in front of your friends, and showing them fake smiles. But where I am getting to is, that Nhi.. We are all here to help you gain your confidence. Am I right? We may not understand how you truly feel, but we may have a similar feelings ourself. Right? ^-^
Jennifer Laing..
ReplyDeleteThat is why we are here.. To help you.. To give you a lending hand.
...........i am sorry....... to go off like that... i was still... a bit... i am sorry...
ReplyDeleteCrystal... I AM SO SORRY!!! i didn't mean to say that.. i know you know me better then anyone else... i am sorry!.. really i am .... so sorry...
and Jennifer i am sorry as well.. i know ... i am sorry...
sorry everyone.... sorry...
It's okay. ^-^
ReplyDeleteWe all here have our ups and downs. We can always get back up from this. We may face encounters towards life, but you will always face a kind warm-hearted friend. Who is there for you. Even with the most horrific things. We will still be there.
-Crystal Moon
you wanna know my oppinon?
ReplyDeletehehehe, well imma tell you anyways ;)
your just feeling down cause of flshback?
i think that's what you said
well i have flshbacks to. hehehe
ill go away eventually, nothing to worry about
hehehe, & i know you aint losing faith nor are you weak. heheh there's just moment you just have to feel depress. There's nothing bad about it, that's just life. hehehe ^__^
& im realize im happy that you have your little moment. Not everyone can be happy all the time. hehehehehehe ^__^